Always in our thoughts

Dear Jared,
I realize you can't read this right now, but I hope one day you will. If anything I will at least be able to write what I am thinking and  feelings as we begin a life without you in our home.

Last weekend we went and saw Cars2.  You loved Cars Movie. I kept thinking you would outgrow this phase... When we moved to Texas I wanted to paint your room with basketballs and soccer balls.. Everytime we went to the Home Depot you would pick out the Cars Movie Theme room postcard.  We went somewhere and you told a stranger.. My room is going to be like Cars Movie... You were determined. Your love for Cars Movie  was steady for over three  years.. When you turned six, you finally moved on to Transformers.  Seeing Cars2 the movie without you was hard.  I remember you used to carry around one or two lightning McQueen cars in your hands.. You had one with tires on the eyes.. You called him Donut eyes.  You called the girl car.. Salad.. instead of Sally. You called The blue car.. Mr. The king.  Cars Movie will always remind me of you.

This week we went to NrH2O, the waterpark by our house.  We went with Gabby, Pricilla, Mary, Antonio, Angel and Marcello.  We played in the "buckets" your favorite part of the waterpark.  I slid down the slide with Pricilla and Gabriella, I played in the wave pool with them.. I was sad because you were not there.  I chose to play through my sadness.  We miss you soo much.  We want you to be happy as you start your new life, yet we are sad you are not with us.  We love you in the morning, we love you in the night...

Always in our hearts,
Forever our son,

Love
Mommy